Dreams Bring Decisions

Two nights ago I had the strangest dream. I dreamed that I was basically nine months pregnant with a baby girl. I don't remember every detail of it now but I do remember being at the doctor's or the hospital and feeling the baby's heartbeat through my stomach; like how you would feel the baby kicking/moving but it was her heartbeat. But the strangest part was I had never felt her move or anything until this point, which is strange since I was close to full-term. In my dream though her heartbeat stopped and it really scared me, I thought I had lost her but then a little while later I could feel her again. I was walking around in my dream with my hands under my belly just feeling her heartbeat because I thought it was the coolest and most amazing sensation. I didn't want to take my hands off my belly for any reason because I loved feeling it. Then after I left my visit with the doctor I kept running into all these people I knew, I was at some outside festival type thing, and I was making everyone I ran into feel my belly and my baby inside me. I kept explaining to them that I had never felt the baby before inside me and so this was incredible! I woke up from my dream slightly freaked out and I could still "feel" the baby's heartbeat. I couldn't really but it was all just in my mind. It really freaked me out though because there is no way Collin and I are ready for children. Not that we don't want them someday, we're just in no shape financially to have a baby right now.

I just did a little research on dreams and what it means to dream of being pregnant and this is the general conscensus:
To dream that you are pregnant, symbolizes an aspect of yourself or some aspect of your personal life that is growing and developing. You may not be ready to talk about it or act on it. Being pregnant in your dream may also represent the birth of a new idea, direction, project or goal.

To dream that you are pregnant with the baby dying inside of you, suggests that a project you had put a lot of effort into is falling apart and slowly deteriorating. Nothing is working out the way you had anticipated.

I suppose that's pretty much why I was dreaming about being pregnant. I've been toying with the idea for a little while now of becoming a Vantel Pearl's Demonstrator but haven't signed up yet because I'm scared. I'm scared of not doing well, of not having any clients and being a failure. It would be a great opportunity for me because it would help us out a little bit financially. I could make my own hours and "work" as often or as little as I want to. But I've just been too scared to take the leap into this venture. I need to do it. I want to do it. So I think I'm going to stop putting it off and just join. Thank you pregnancy dream for giving me a kick in the right direction! =)

And maybe one day when I really am pregnant I'll have a pleasant pregnancy experience like in my dream. =) Have you ever dreamed of being pregnant? Was it as bizarre as my pregnancy dream?

Cindy

P.S. If you've never heard of Vantel Pearls visit their website here to learn more information. If you'd like to host a party or buy any jewelry send me an e-mail or leave a comment! I'd love to help you have a party. Also, if you're not in the general Southern Maryland/ Northern Virigina area and are interested in Vantel but don't know of a demonstrator let me know and I can put you in touch with someone in your area!

Becoming a Runner?

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I'm not a runner, I never have been. I'm not athletic, I never have been that either. However, I'm really wanting to lose a few pounds and get into shape. And as much as I want to do it, I haven't been able to motivate myself to exercise. Last week though I looked into the Couch to 5k program and I've made a decision. I am going to do it. I'm starting today and in 9 weeks I should be able to run a 5k. And participating in an actual 5k Run is motivation to do this thing! This is exciting for me! I've always admired runners. I had friends who were on the cross country and track teams and I wished I could run like that but I never did it. I'm not claiming that after I'm done with the program I'll go on to run a marathon or what not, but who knows. I've heard that once you start running it becomes really addicting. I'd like that to be the case. I'd like to become more active in my lifestyle and running is very good for you! So here goes nothing! Collin is going on this journey with me. He used to run with his dad growing up and now he's going to run with me. I'm glad he is, it will hold me accountable. And you guys can hold me accountable, too! I'm sure I'll share some of this journey on here but ask me how it's going from time to time if you like!

If you've ever done the Couch to 5k program before, what did you think of it? I'd really like to get some thoughts and tips from others!

Cindy

Decisions, Decisions...

I know I haven't blogged all week. And I'm sorry for that. I've got a lot going on right now though. A lot of really tough situations that don't have clear answers are hitting us all at once and it's not much fun. But don't worry, I'm still happy and enjoying the parts of my life that aren't causing us major stress. And once things get figured out and situations are decided or settled I'll share some more about those things, but I need to keep them off the blogosphere for now. I hope you understand.

Anyway, those things aren't going to keep me from blogging completely. I may only sporadically blog here and there for a little bit, but it will all depend on how I'm feeling each day. With lots on my mind it's tough to find inspiration for blogging.

I've had some fun the past few days though! Over the weekend Collin and I got to go to a concert at our church of a music ministry team. It was pretty good and we enjoyed chatting with some of the band members afterwards. We had a fun date night on Saturday evening after he got off work and we enjoyed spending some quality time together.

We LOVE Chick-Fil-A. It's actually where we had our first date of sorts. Actually, our date Saturday night was just like our first date to a tee. We met at Chick-Fil-A for lunch and went to Target and walked around. We did the same thing on Saturday, only it was dinner instead of lunch! We almost always get cookies and cream milkshakes because we love them so much and Collin gets my cherry. I don't care that I was shivering while drinking it, it was delicious!

On Sunday I experimented with my outfit a little bit and was a little concerned about how it looked until Collin told me I looked really good. Needless to say I left the outfit on and felt great the whole day! I know I'm not a fashion blogger, but I want to share some pictures of my outfit because I loved it!

So anyway, it may not be all that cutting edge for most of you but I NEVER would have worn a shirt that was long like that with a skirt until I started looking at some fashion blogs and saw that it actually looks really cute. I was proud of myself for trying something new and liking it! And maybe I will post some more fashion pictures if I'm really liking my outfit one day. Who knows. Anyway... Sunday evening we spent over at my parent's house and we had dinner and played Wii. We had a lot of fun and it was good to spend some time with my parents. We actually went over there last night for dinner as well. Lucky us! The cat in my pictures above is my baby boy, Jake. He wandered into our lives when I was just graduating from high school in '04 and he won my heart instantly. He's too attached to my dad to come live with me but he will always be my baby boy. I love that cat so much and I miss him!

So yes, I have had some fun and will continue to! But if you guys could please pray for us, we could use it. Like I said, there are a lot of things going on that are basically major life decisions and need some serious prayer. So thanks in advance!

Cindy